Do you ever feel like the army knows all of your plans for the future(outside of the army) and then does every possible thing to mess with it? Or that "they" enjoy watching us scramble to make a new plan.
I guess Jared and I were just to jaded in thinking they wouldn't deploy him again so close to his ETS. We always said, when asked, "no he won't have to deploy again, but you know the army". I cant speak for him, but, I never believed that last part. My mistake was thinking logically. Which 9 times out of 10 is not how the army (or some commands anyway) thinks.
These were my thoughts: why send a guy when your just going to send him back in a few months? Why put him in a squad that he is just going to leave, that is not fair to those men, creating a bond knowing one of you is just going to leave?(he may have avoided this one though, I'll mention it later).
Now instead of thinking logically I have to think about where this leaves us, how this changes our plans, immediately and long term. I have to find the positives, push threw the crap, anger, and overwhelming fear. Be strong for Jared, me being a panicky wreck will do no good for him while he is there. Be strong fory boys, rylan is old enough now that he will realize daddy is leaving.
We had planned on staying here for a while after jared gets out. He would get his purple belt, and I would get work experience to have a better chance of a job back home. We had our money saving plan all worked out, setting ourselves up for an "easy" transition.
Our new "plan". Jared is deploying sometime in December. To Afghanistan. His first time there. I will now be moving back home, for good.
During predeployment leave we are traveling home(7hrs away). Leaving the boys with our moms, renting a moving truck and coming back to get all our stuff. It will all go in storage back home for a while, I'll stay with my mom for a month or two, just until things settle down and i find a place for the boys and i. Meanwhile Jared will come back here and find somewhere to stay until they deploy.
He will be deployed about 6months(unless he decides to extend his contract for the length of the deployment). They will send him back here(ft. Lewis) to start the process of getting out. He will then be under geographical bachelor status and be in the barriks. The boys and I will be waiting for him back home.
This whole thing has effected so much. I have to change how my job/school plan will go. Trying to get a clinical set up back home, trying to get a job with them. Jareds plans for jui jitsu and school.
All of this pales in comparison to my biggest fear.
Maybe I'm alone in this thought, maybe I'm just overly paranoid or pessimistic.
Do you ever feel like multiple deployments push fate? How many times can you come out on top?
I know, there are men who have done multitudes of deployments and have come back, and there are the unlucky ones who didn't make it there their first. But it is still there in the back of my mind...
So here we are, pushed to find the positives of a situation we never truly thought would happen. The positives are only there to attempt to make you feel better though, they still seem so small and insignificant compared to having your husband home and safe.
So here they are, our "positives"
-saving money.
Rent is MUCH cheaper back home. Deployment pay. Me finding a job. Tax return.
I am so much more money conscious than I have ever been. I understandbwhat are needs and wants, what I can live with out. I will live on the budget we have now.( my next post will be more about money), banking at minimum $1000 a month, not counting what I may make,
-having family around.
Not only the benefit for the boys of having the bonds with their grandmas, but a benefit to our money savings goal. Daycare costs in general are high but they are higher here. If I stayed here and did my clinicals and got a job, anybthingbi made would go straight to daycare. Not to mention i would be doing 12-14 hr shifts. Both grandmas have agreed to watch the boys as much as possible keeping day care to a very minimum if at all.
-easy transition for Jared.
Instead of worrying about getting home or finding a place, Jared will be able to just come home. He will finish ets and have no stress.
I'm ok with change, I really am, and im pretty good with going with the flow. Sometimes it just pushes me to my limits though. I have a lot to be thankful for and that is what I have to focus on.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Saturday, June 25, 2011
so....how about an update lol.
So. Every computer in our house is dead lol. I'm typing this on my crappy phone that chooses when to charge and auto correct at the worst times. So forgive me if things look wonkey!
Let's see, since posting last, a few things have happened. Jared went to YTC for 3 wks and unlike everyone else he dis not take his phone(following rules lol) so we dis not speak for 2wks! We havent gone that long without talking since his first deployment so that was a little tough. His friend got him to call me though so we talked twice before he came home.
He was then home for a week, and then left for a week. He missed fathers day again but oh well we still celebrateed when he got back!!!
The week he was gone just happened to bee the week of my finals for school.
I passed every class and passed overall with a B-.
I'm proud but honestly not THAT proud. Some classes I just made the cut. Balanceing everything just got hard. Sometimes I didn't study, or I would misplace papers, get behind on modules.
The one that stressed me out most of all was ly machine set up test. I don't like the way the teacher runs things. He tricks us left.and right.
I lost my log of machine set ups, which he was apparently basing our finals off of. If we had a full log then he would juat ask you questions. For me I had to do a set up and answer question. I'm not quite sure he understood how close I was to barfing and or bawling, because I was so nervous.
Despite watching set up videos the night before I made a few simple mistakes that should have been second nature. I was so flustered at that that I had trouble answering the questions. On top of that he had a former student and current tech in there visiting. While I was doing my final!!!
I left.crying.
But I passed.with a 70%
I see lots of.room for improving though.
I have decided to drop my clinicals though. When i found out that my clinic was to be in Bremerto, and talking to Jared, I just don't think this is the right time. I have the option to take just the clinicals at a later dated and possibly get a closser clinic.
Working out mine and jareds secheduals and adding the boys in there, with only 1car is just to hectic. Jared leaves way early and never gets off the same time. With out him having the car he can't get home or pick up the boys, if he has the car I can't get to clinics. This would also mean me being gon 14hrs a day (12 at the clinic and 1 he drive each way). If Jared at least had a car he could pick them up earlier!
Anyway, I'm realizing that this is all a lot harder than I thought, and that tuition is a crock.
I'm not sure I would recommend this school to anyone. I've seen so many students be screwed over by the FA department including myself. You can't get anyone to answer their phones and dnot expect your phone call to be returned anytime soon! I will be happy when I get this all out of the way and can move on!
Random side note. I've been looking on to American military university and their terrorism studies and counter intelligence degrees..... If only I had the money lol.
Let's see, since posting last, a few things have happened. Jared went to YTC for 3 wks and unlike everyone else he dis not take his phone(following rules lol) so we dis not speak for 2wks! We havent gone that long without talking since his first deployment so that was a little tough. His friend got him to call me though so we talked twice before he came home.
He was then home for a week, and then left for a week. He missed fathers day again but oh well we still celebrateed when he got back!!!
The week he was gone just happened to bee the week of my finals for school.
I passed every class and passed overall with a B-.
I'm proud but honestly not THAT proud. Some classes I just made the cut. Balanceing everything just got hard. Sometimes I didn't study, or I would misplace papers, get behind on modules.
The one that stressed me out most of all was ly machine set up test. I don't like the way the teacher runs things. He tricks us left.and right.
I lost my log of machine set ups, which he was apparently basing our finals off of. If we had a full log then he would juat ask you questions. For me I had to do a set up and answer question. I'm not quite sure he understood how close I was to barfing and or bawling, because I was so nervous.
Despite watching set up videos the night before I made a few simple mistakes that should have been second nature. I was so flustered at that that I had trouble answering the questions. On top of that he had a former student and current tech in there visiting. While I was doing my final!!!
I left.crying.
But I passed.with a 70%
I see lots of.room for improving though.
I have decided to drop my clinicals though. When i found out that my clinic was to be in Bremerto, and talking to Jared, I just don't think this is the right time. I have the option to take just the clinicals at a later dated and possibly get a closser clinic.
Working out mine and jareds secheduals and adding the boys in there, with only 1car is just to hectic. Jared leaves way early and never gets off the same time. With out him having the car he can't get home or pick up the boys, if he has the car I can't get to clinics. This would also mean me being gon 14hrs a day (12 at the clinic and 1 he drive each way). If Jared at least had a car he could pick them up earlier!
Anyway, I'm realizing that this is all a lot harder than I thought, and that tuition is a crock.
I'm not sure I would recommend this school to anyone. I've seen so many students be screwed over by the FA department including myself. You can't get anyone to answer their phones and dnot expect your phone call to be returned anytime soon! I will be happy when I get this all out of the way and can move on!
Random side note. I've been looking on to American military university and their terrorism studies and counter intelligence degrees..... If only I had the money lol.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
And I did it again
Ive been gone for a while lol.
Im still adjusting to this whole school thing. It usually takes me a week or two to get back in to a routine when I switch things up but this is the biggest change Ive made in a long time so its taking longer.
Getting school and home life coordinated is difficult. Keeping up with my household stuff, time with the boys and jared and my school work is crazy.
I am just now getting to the point of a routine and "normally" which is actually going to change a little with finding a new babysitter. Miss Lauren is moving back home so I need to find someone new. Most of my prospects are on base so thats going to be an adjustment.
Also after this month is over my class schedule changes again. Right now I dont have to be to class until 10am except on fridays I go in at 8am. It will switch to 8am everyday. Then once this quarter is up it will change again once I am assigned a clinic! OY!!
At this point Jared is getting a ride to and from work every day. He pays a friend who lives near by $40 a month which is less that what we would be paying for another car(in payment and gass) plus we use less gas since my school and the babysitter is only 5min away.
So with my house a mess, laundry piling up and dinner being later I think I have a routine made out.
Mornings are flexible at this point. Im "usually" up by 7:30am which lets me get dressed and the boys clothes layed out and I eat. Then I wake the boys up at 8am get them dressed and feed them a little. Then we get to the sitters by 8:30(or 8) and I go to class. Getting to class this early gives me extra time to study, make sure I my assignments are correct and to sit in and watch the other students do machine set ups. Its also nice on test days because I can do an extra study so its fresh in my mind!
Finances and school are TOUGH! Thats another thing we are adjusting too. We had everything set perfectly to live with in our means and have money to put into savings. The money we normally put in savings is going to daycare now. Not that Im complaining about that lol. I was lucky enough to find a friend I really like and am comfortable letting her watch my kids, I was also Extremely lucky that Im not having to pay 1300+ a month like I would at a daycare!!
School came with so many more expenses than where divulged to us. Having to buy extra items, only being able to buy them at the over priced book store.
I did everything as inexpensively as I could. Used what I had at home(pens, notebooks, stray backpack).
We are doing ok, bills are paid and we are feed. There is just NO wiggle room!
I am liking class though. We got threw dry stringing the machine and have moved on to adding a saline bag, so there is actually liquid moving threw the tubing lol.
Its difficult when you only have 1 day of instructed machine set up during the week. You can take turns during down times in class but its hard getting the teacher to help you in depth with each and every alarm going off.
Today he would have a group go up but stop at any point during their set up. He would call up a group and they would have to figure out where the last person left off. That was HARD! 1 figuring out where they left off and 2 remembering the process its self. Its hard from start to finish anyway but doing it like this was harder.
Then he would do something wrong with the machine and the next group would have to trouble shoot what was wrong with the machine.
My group has done 2 field studys at 2 different clinics in the area. It was neat to see how different companies run(one was non profit and one was FOR profit) It was nice to see patients and get good information on the field.
Well Im tired so I will write more later!
Im still adjusting to this whole school thing. It usually takes me a week or two to get back in to a routine when I switch things up but this is the biggest change Ive made in a long time so its taking longer.
Getting school and home life coordinated is difficult. Keeping up with my household stuff, time with the boys and jared and my school work is crazy.
I am just now getting to the point of a routine and "normally" which is actually going to change a little with finding a new babysitter. Miss Lauren is moving back home so I need to find someone new. Most of my prospects are on base so thats going to be an adjustment.
Also after this month is over my class schedule changes again. Right now I dont have to be to class until 10am except on fridays I go in at 8am. It will switch to 8am everyday. Then once this quarter is up it will change again once I am assigned a clinic! OY!!
At this point Jared is getting a ride to and from work every day. He pays a friend who lives near by $40 a month which is less that what we would be paying for another car(in payment and gass) plus we use less gas since my school and the babysitter is only 5min away.
So with my house a mess, laundry piling up and dinner being later I think I have a routine made out.
Mornings are flexible at this point. Im "usually" up by 7:30am which lets me get dressed and the boys clothes layed out and I eat. Then I wake the boys up at 8am get them dressed and feed them a little. Then we get to the sitters by 8:30(or 8) and I go to class. Getting to class this early gives me extra time to study, make sure I my assignments are correct and to sit in and watch the other students do machine set ups. Its also nice on test days because I can do an extra study so its fresh in my mind!
Finances and school are TOUGH! Thats another thing we are adjusting too. We had everything set perfectly to live with in our means and have money to put into savings. The money we normally put in savings is going to daycare now. Not that Im complaining about that lol. I was lucky enough to find a friend I really like and am comfortable letting her watch my kids, I was also Extremely lucky that Im not having to pay 1300+ a month like I would at a daycare!!
School came with so many more expenses than where divulged to us. Having to buy extra items, only being able to buy them at the over priced book store.
I did everything as inexpensively as I could. Used what I had at home(pens, notebooks, stray backpack).
We are doing ok, bills are paid and we are feed. There is just NO wiggle room!
I am liking class though. We got threw dry stringing the machine and have moved on to adding a saline bag, so there is actually liquid moving threw the tubing lol.
Its difficult when you only have 1 day of instructed machine set up during the week. You can take turns during down times in class but its hard getting the teacher to help you in depth with each and every alarm going off.
Today he would have a group go up but stop at any point during their set up. He would call up a group and they would have to figure out where the last person left off. That was HARD! 1 figuring out where they left off and 2 remembering the process its self. Its hard from start to finish anyway but doing it like this was harder.
Then he would do something wrong with the machine and the next group would have to trouble shoot what was wrong with the machine.
My group has done 2 field studys at 2 different clinics in the area. It was neat to see how different companies run(one was non profit and one was FOR profit) It was nice to see patients and get good information on the field.
Well Im tired so I will write more later!
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Does this mean Im getting older?
In High school I wasnt a bad student but I didnt really try my hardest. I got ok grades with out really trying or studying. I took the minimum required classes and had a short sechedual my junior and senior yrs because there was nothing else I could take. I had double the "extra curricular" classes than needed!
In starting college I knew I would be a little different but worried(and still do) that I would fall back into that pattern. My goal is to have a 4.0 and ALSO learn the non book taught aspect of my field.
I went to school 3 days last week but have yet to recieve the syllabus. We are having out first vocabulary test on Monday. Friday during free time I wrote out the definitions of the words and studied a little. Tonight I ACTUALLY studied the best I could. I actually feel very confident for my first test!!
Well then I got to thinking. If I had bought my medical terminology book/cd I could be studying even more right now. The modules are work at your own pace, so I could be getting a head start. Im a little mad at myself that I am not able to do so. I couldn't afford to buy my $90 medical terminology book Friday because the bank still had the hold on my Pell Grant, but now its good and I can get my book Monday. But thats a whole weekend I lost!
This leads me to the title of my post. Iam starting to realize that postponing school and not going straight out of HS may have been a very good thing for me. I am more motivated now, more focused and more confident!
So maybe it is not a situation of just age but life lol. Im an adult now and I can do this better than I could have then!
In starting college I knew I would be a little different but worried(and still do) that I would fall back into that pattern. My goal is to have a 4.0 and ALSO learn the non book taught aspect of my field.
I went to school 3 days last week but have yet to recieve the syllabus. We are having out first vocabulary test on Monday. Friday during free time I wrote out the definitions of the words and studied a little. Tonight I ACTUALLY studied the best I could. I actually feel very confident for my first test!!
Well then I got to thinking. If I had bought my medical terminology book/cd I could be studying even more right now. The modules are work at your own pace, so I could be getting a head start. Im a little mad at myself that I am not able to do so. I couldn't afford to buy my $90 medical terminology book Friday because the bank still had the hold on my Pell Grant, but now its good and I can get my book Monday. But thats a whole weekend I lost!
This leads me to the title of my post. Iam starting to realize that postponing school and not going straight out of HS may have been a very good thing for me. I am more motivated now, more focused and more confident!
So maybe it is not a situation of just age but life lol. Im an adult now and I can do this better than I could have then!
Friday, April 1, 2011
Im still alive, I promise!
I have really let this fall behind!!!
Things have been so chaotic lately that by the time I have time to blog(after the boys go to bed) I usually just want to spend some time with Jared, and go to bed!
So here what has been going on.
Wednesday I started school!!!!!
The day didn't start out to great.
Around midnight someones car alarm started going off. This wasnt your normal beeep beeep beeep, kind of alarm. Its 5different noises that go ON AND ON AND ON! Then it will stop just long enough for you to think that it is off.......then it starts again!! The people would let it go off 4-5 times before shutting it off!! This went on periodically until around 3am!!
Around 2:30 Rylan woke up. He had wet the bed and had a nightmare. So I changed him up and put him in bed with us. Needless to say neither Jared or I got a good nights sleep.
We then had to get up at 4:45am to take him in to work so I could have the car for the day to get to school.
Once back home I feed and dressed the boys and myself. Took them to Laurens and headed to school!
It was interesting being back in a school setting. I only have one teacher and 1 class room. Because this is a course that you get a certificate in and not a degree, I don't have any pre requisites like say English 101 or math 101. Although I do have medical math!
There are about 24 people in my class. I was intrigued to see the variety of people in my class. From older(40+) women AND men(5 one of which has identical triplet girls on the way) to just out of highschool, 4 foreign students, 2 sets of sisters and many of us with children!
We are in class every day from 8am to 3pm.
This next month is a little different though. In our class room there are only 4 dialysis machines to work on. So Mr. Ken(or instructor) put us in to 6 groups of 4. Only 1 group will come in each morning from 8-10(or machine maintenance and set up class) and the rest of us come in at 10, every day that is not our assigned day.(when our next class starts). This enables 1 on 1 time with Mr. Ken when we are learning how to dry string a machine with blood lines. He has shown us once and its kind of complicated mostly because you have to do it in an exact order due to policy and procedures. Not only that but you are dealing with the machine simultaneously because its detecting levels and such.
Most of the projects we will be doing are group based. We already have our groups and that is it for the year.
Our first project is 2wks long doing a field study. We have to contact 2 different company's( main are Davita and Fersinius?) and ask if our group can come in and basicly interview them. We can ask them any questions we feel we need to pertaining to the whole realm of dialysis. We then compile everything and EACH make our own books with all the info we gathered in them.
So we go as a group and share info but our books are individual.
I actually like my group. Im not a big fan of group projects because I like doing things on my own and MY way lol.
But Im glad I was pared with who I was for 2 reasons. 1)I didn't get any annoying people, and yes after only 3 days they have already made themselves known! 2) Out of the 3 other girls I am more outgoing. Granted Im not as out going as others in the class but in my group I am. This I hope will get me more notice at a clinic than if I were with the others. This sounds horrible but its the truth!
I can very well gain a job from my clinicals so its very important to me!
Ive only hit a few snags in these 3 days but they are kind of major. I'll start with the smallest one.
1)So I got my pell grant the first day of school. I found a "shared" bank here that works with Potlatch back home. I deposited my money but got $200 out for Lauren. It was lucky I did that because the bank is holding my deposit!!!! And it takes 3 days to go threw! The money is there but I cant access it!
So I wasn't able to get any of my books or my scrubs and shoes. I did get some blood lines, a stethoscope and a face shield. So I have to go BACK to the book/clothing store to get my stuff early Monday morning!
2)We have to have specific immunizations to do our clinicals next symester. Well I found out(after doing a worthless test) that I was never immunized for Hepatitis A B or C. All of which I need to do clinical s(c is optional I guess). So now I have to wait for the worthless blood test to come back and then get my immunizations!!
3)At this point I dont have a car.....We had a plan and everything was working fine until we were denied a loan.
After I buy my scrubs and stuff I will have about $1000 left of my pell grant. We were going to refinance the car to lower our interest rate with state farm. They said they could give us a $5k loan to pay off the 2k left on the car and use the left over, plus my 1k to buy me a new car. I even had one picked out too and it was less than 4k. Then they told us we had been denied. That was yesterday and we still dont know what we are going to do.
I dont know how much more I can take of getting myself and the boys up at 4:45am. Its gotten all of us out of whack and I almost fell asleep in school. I know its stressing Jared out too.
Anyway. Thats what has been up with me!
Things have been so chaotic lately that by the time I have time to blog(after the boys go to bed) I usually just want to spend some time with Jared, and go to bed!
So here what has been going on.
Wednesday I started school!!!!!
The day didn't start out to great.
Around midnight someones car alarm started going off. This wasnt your normal beeep beeep beeep, kind of alarm. Its 5different noises that go ON AND ON AND ON! Then it will stop just long enough for you to think that it is off.......then it starts again!! The people would let it go off 4-5 times before shutting it off!! This went on periodically until around 3am!!
Around 2:30 Rylan woke up. He had wet the bed and had a nightmare. So I changed him up and put him in bed with us. Needless to say neither Jared or I got a good nights sleep.
We then had to get up at 4:45am to take him in to work so I could have the car for the day to get to school.
Once back home I feed and dressed the boys and myself. Took them to Laurens and headed to school!
It was interesting being back in a school setting. I only have one teacher and 1 class room. Because this is a course that you get a certificate in and not a degree, I don't have any pre requisites like say English 101 or math 101. Although I do have medical math!
There are about 24 people in my class. I was intrigued to see the variety of people in my class. From older(40+) women AND men(5 one of which has identical triplet girls on the way) to just out of highschool, 4 foreign students, 2 sets of sisters and many of us with children!
We are in class every day from 8am to 3pm.
This next month is a little different though. In our class room there are only 4 dialysis machines to work on. So Mr. Ken(or instructor) put us in to 6 groups of 4. Only 1 group will come in each morning from 8-10(or machine maintenance and set up class) and the rest of us come in at 10, every day that is not our assigned day.(when our next class starts). This enables 1 on 1 time with Mr. Ken when we are learning how to dry string a machine with blood lines. He has shown us once and its kind of complicated mostly because you have to do it in an exact order due to policy and procedures. Not only that but you are dealing with the machine simultaneously because its detecting levels and such.
Most of the projects we will be doing are group based. We already have our groups and that is it for the year.
Our first project is 2wks long doing a field study. We have to contact 2 different company's( main are Davita and Fersinius?) and ask if our group can come in and basicly interview them. We can ask them any questions we feel we need to pertaining to the whole realm of dialysis. We then compile everything and EACH make our own books with all the info we gathered in them.
So we go as a group and share info but our books are individual.
I actually like my group. Im not a big fan of group projects because I like doing things on my own and MY way lol.
But Im glad I was pared with who I was for 2 reasons. 1)I didn't get any annoying people, and yes after only 3 days they have already made themselves known! 2) Out of the 3 other girls I am more outgoing. Granted Im not as out going as others in the class but in my group I am. This I hope will get me more notice at a clinic than if I were with the others. This sounds horrible but its the truth!
I can very well gain a job from my clinicals so its very important to me!
Ive only hit a few snags in these 3 days but they are kind of major. I'll start with the smallest one.
1)So I got my pell grant the first day of school. I found a "shared" bank here that works with Potlatch back home. I deposited my money but got $200 out for Lauren. It was lucky I did that because the bank is holding my deposit!!!! And it takes 3 days to go threw! The money is there but I cant access it!
So I wasn't able to get any of my books or my scrubs and shoes. I did get some blood lines, a stethoscope and a face shield. So I have to go BACK to the book/clothing store to get my stuff early Monday morning!
2)We have to have specific immunizations to do our clinicals next symester. Well I found out(after doing a worthless test) that I was never immunized for Hepatitis A B or C. All of which I need to do clinical s(c is optional I guess). So now I have to wait for the worthless blood test to come back and then get my immunizations!!
3)At this point I dont have a car.....We had a plan and everything was working fine until we were denied a loan.
After I buy my scrubs and stuff I will have about $1000 left of my pell grant. We were going to refinance the car to lower our interest rate with state farm. They said they could give us a $5k loan to pay off the 2k left on the car and use the left over, plus my 1k to buy me a new car. I even had one picked out too and it was less than 4k. Then they told us we had been denied. That was yesterday and we still dont know what we are going to do.
I dont know how much more I can take of getting myself and the boys up at 4:45am. Its gotten all of us out of whack and I almost fell asleep in school. I know its stressing Jared out too.
Anyway. Thats what has been up with me!
Friday, March 18, 2011
Day 8
Day 8 - Post your favorite deployment photo (a photo of "see you laters", him coming home, or him deployed) and tell why it is your favorite
So Im bending the rules a little again. I can pic just one photo!
This is the first time Jared met Gabe. Because of the length of his deployment he didnt get to come home for Gabes birth. So this was it at about 2am to boot!
I love this one for 2 reasons.
1) He is in "full battle rattle" i.e. all gear. Which I find incredibly SEXY(who wouldn't lol)
2)He is actually SMILING! A true smile from Jared is elusive. I don't think he has a real smile in any of our wedding pictures!
(this was on his first tour)
Lastly this one.
This is our last Homecoming picture.
While it is AWESOME that we dont ever have to go threw a deployment again, there is something about the feeling of it that I will miss.
Some people may not agree with what Im going to say but its how I feel.
I DO NOT wish my husband to go back to a war zone ever again.
BUT I will miss the feeling of the moment he comes home. The moment I see him for the first time in real life after so long. The feeling of hugging him after so long. The feeling of seeing him with our children again.
Its a weird feeling if you haven't ever gone threw something like this. Its special, amazing and indescribable.
So Im bending the rules a little again. I can pic just one photo!
This is the first time Jared met Gabe. Because of the length of his deployment he didnt get to come home for Gabes birth. So this was it at about 2am to boot!
I love this one for 2 reasons.
1) He is in "full battle rattle" i.e. all gear. Which I find incredibly SEXY(who wouldn't lol)
2)He is actually SMILING! A true smile from Jared is elusive. I don't think he has a real smile in any of our wedding pictures!
(this was on his first tour)
Lastly this one.
This is our last Homecoming picture.
While it is AWESOME that we dont ever have to go threw a deployment again, there is something about the feeling of it that I will miss.
Some people may not agree with what Im going to say but its how I feel.
I DO NOT wish my husband to go back to a war zone ever again.
BUT I will miss the feeling of the moment he comes home. The moment I see him for the first time in real life after so long. The feeling of hugging him after so long. The feeling of seeing him with our children again.
Its a weird feeling if you haven't ever gone threw something like this. Its special, amazing and indescribable.
Day 7
Day 7 - Post a picture of a wonderful friend that you’ve made because of your spouse being in the military
This is Nicole, Nate and Aiden.
I met Nicole for the first time just after Jared and I had gotten married. I went back to Ft. Campbell with Jared for a visit(which turned into me staying to have Rylan).
Jared and Nate worked together and they lived 1 apartment complex down from the people we were staying with. They would come over every once and a while with their adorable son Aiden.
Shortly after, the menfolk deployed. Well except mine, he got to stay for Rylan but then deployed.
Nicole moved back to her home town and I to mine. We never got to say goodbye or exchange numbers.
Fast forward about halfway threw the deployment.
I get one of the calls that we never want. No it wasnt that my husband was hurt, but that there had been a death in the unit, but who it is they dont tell you.
My heart stopped. I could only think of Nicole and hope it was not Nate.
But I had no way to contact her and if I did I had no idea what to say.
"Hey is your husband dead?" isnt every eloquent.
About an hour later I get a text from my SIL who we had loaned Jareds phone for the time he was gone.
She says some girl named Nicole texted her asking if I had Jareds phone.
Morgan answered her back telling her the situation. Nicole asked if she could have my number and Morgan said yes.
Nicole wanted to know if everything was alright on my end. I.E. is your husband ok.
I asked the same of her.
We were both good our husbands were just fine.
She said when she got the call she felt the same way I did and couldn't help but try and contact me.
We have been friends since.
We coordinated our arrivals back to Ft. Campbell, I was able to be there to help her unpack her things on Halloween night with her FIL and BIL.
We watched each others kids, had party's at each others houses, met up for Starbucks and the park with the boys.
We even shared our first Thanksgiving away from home together. The men attempted the first deep fried turkeys for any of us. They were amazing!!
Unfortunately, as with army tradition, we were separated.
We PCSd here to WA and they stayed in KY.
Our men deployed again. Hers to a much more dangerous place than mine. Knowing where he was and what was going on I worried for her so much and wish I could have been there more for her. Im over joyed to say that he is coming home to her soon though.
I also very much plan to go see her again soon I may even surprise her!
We have been trying to coordinate a trip to Vegas too!
This is Nicole, Nate and Aiden.
I met Nicole for the first time just after Jared and I had gotten married. I went back to Ft. Campbell with Jared for a visit(which turned into me staying to have Rylan).
Jared and Nate worked together and they lived 1 apartment complex down from the people we were staying with. They would come over every once and a while with their adorable son Aiden.
Shortly after, the menfolk deployed. Well except mine, he got to stay for Rylan but then deployed.
Nicole moved back to her home town and I to mine. We never got to say goodbye or exchange numbers.
Fast forward about halfway threw the deployment.
I get one of the calls that we never want. No it wasnt that my husband was hurt, but that there had been a death in the unit, but who it is they dont tell you.
My heart stopped. I could only think of Nicole and hope it was not Nate.
But I had no way to contact her and if I did I had no idea what to say.
"Hey is your husband dead?" isnt every eloquent.
About an hour later I get a text from my SIL who we had loaned Jareds phone for the time he was gone.
She says some girl named Nicole texted her asking if I had Jareds phone.
Morgan answered her back telling her the situation. Nicole asked if she could have my number and Morgan said yes.
Nicole wanted to know if everything was alright on my end. I.E. is your husband ok.
I asked the same of her.
We were both good our husbands were just fine.
She said when she got the call she felt the same way I did and couldn't help but try and contact me.
We have been friends since.
We coordinated our arrivals back to Ft. Campbell, I was able to be there to help her unpack her things on Halloween night with her FIL and BIL.
We watched each others kids, had party's at each others houses, met up for Starbucks and the park with the boys.
We even shared our first Thanksgiving away from home together. The men attempted the first deep fried turkeys for any of us. They were amazing!!
Unfortunately, as with army tradition, we were separated.
We PCSd here to WA and they stayed in KY.
Our men deployed again. Hers to a much more dangerous place than mine. Knowing where he was and what was going on I worried for her so much and wish I could have been there more for her. Im over joyed to say that he is coming home to her soon though.
I also very much plan to go see her again soon I may even surprise her!
We have been trying to coordinate a trip to Vegas too!
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